February 2, 2018


Hey friends! I am already off schedule on blog posts this week but still plan on getting out three. This one took a bit because it is truly from the heart.

Sometimes life happens and we just don’t understand. We wonder why things in our life aren’t going as planned, we question ourselves way past what’s allowed, we blame others and sometimes we even turn from God.  These are the moments, the moments that shake us to our very core, the ones that leave us broken, lonesome and even morose.  These are the moments which define who we are as people and who we are in Christ.

Then comes the why???????

The why me?

The why is this happening?

and even the unfortunate why God?

We question our creator. We question the beginning and the end. We question the lion and the lamb. We question the alpha and the omega. We question the one who died on the cross for us knowing we might not love him back. We question Jesus. 


 Why do we do this? Why do we get angry at God when something doesn’t go our way? Why do we pray for God’s perfect will for our lives but then turn away from God when it isn’t all rainbows and butterflies.

We do this because we are human. We do this because life throws some pretty hard stuff at us- we just have to get back up and throw it right back…..just kidding. We should NOT throw back because there is so much value that comes from our trials.

We MUST learn to trust God. We must walk with him far more than ever before because these moments we are being prepared for something greater. God wants to bless you, help you and give you the very desires of your heart. But sometimes we miss this  because we don’t get to see the full picture we just get a little glimpse of the now BUT we know the artist.

Think of it this way…when you were a child you may have really wanted something and I mean really wanted it. You might have wanted it so badly that you would have done absolutely anything to get it. You may have wanted to hang out with someone your parents thought were a bad influence. You may have even just not wanted to do the dishes, go to school or eat your dinner. These are perfect examples to look on and think about. Your parents or authority didn’t want you to miss out but they did want to help you. They might have wanted to protect you, teach you a lesson or train you.

When something doesn’t go our way it isn’t because God doesn’t want us to be happy. It isn’t because he wants us to suffer or be sad. It is simply because he might be doing the same….protecting us, teaching us, or training us. It is during these times that we must pay close attention to our creator. WE MUST SAY LORD I TRUST YOU. WE MUST SAY THANK YOU JESUS FOR KEEPING ME FROM SOMETHING I THOUGHT WAS GOOD FOR ME OR I THOUGHT I WANTED. LORD YOUR PLAN IS GREATER FOR MY LIFE THAN ANYTHING I COULD IMAGINE FOR MYSELF.

As a nineteen year old young lady I have learned something. I have learned that there is nothing better in this life than what God has for me. I have also found that there is beauty in trusting him just as there is freedom in trusting him. If my life went according to my plans and desires I wouldn’t be in Sewanee studying Pre-Med, blogging modest fashion, studying Chinese or going to China this summer.

Literally as soon as I completely gave my life to Jesus and surrendered everything to him I saw great big changes. I was given opporunities, blessings, miracles and direction for my life. I was amazed and completely astounded by his love.

The same thinking goes with a relationship and how we should pursue dating as young people in Christ. It’s so hard when you finally find someone you “like” to pray the prayer of literally SHUT THIS DOWN GOD IF IT IS NOT YOUR WILL. Lol and this is actually the words I say….if we don’t pray about relationships how can we continue to walk in Christ.

Dating shouldn’t be casual but should be intentional.

God has the perfect someone out there for you and if you don’t trust the Lord you could limit your future. HEAR ME WHEN I SAY I KNOW THIS IS NOT EASY BUT GOD HAS THE RIGHT PERSON, RIGHT TIMING AND PLAN FOR YOUR LIFE.

If you have prayed for your future husband you might know the agony of loosing someone you thought could be that person. By loosing I mean breaking up or even just when you stop “talking”. You may feel a number of ways but if you pray God will carry you through. I always pray when I meet someone and just on the daily “let my desires align with your will for my life Jesus, let your will be done in my life and God protect my heart”. I pray for God to literally end a relationship that isn’t his will for my life becuase it has to happen if we wish to live for Jesus with all of our being.

It had to happen so you could learn to trust God, learn something new, experience a season, wait for his timing and realize God knows the desires of your heart.

Sometimes the timing of life is a little off, sometimes life happens and sometimes people, things, situations change but OUR GOD IS CONSTANT.

So while life is hard we can just know……


All that I am and all that I will ever be I OWE to KING JESUS.

Psalms 37:4 Delight thyself also in the LORD; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.

Proverbs 3:5 Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.

Psalms 27:14  Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord!

I hope you enjoyed this post- it’s been on my heart for a little while now.

Bless others and be blessed!

All my love sweet friends!

Alexa Sue-Anne Dudley

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