Waiting for something.
Hey Y’all so happy to finally be posting something after a long UNPLANNED break from blogging-school has been crazy! Growing up I never thought I would pursue the doctor route and even more so learn the Chinese language! That being said I have my work cut out for me but I’m blessed to have the opportunity to study these things at Sewanee! God is good.
While I have a few long-awaited posts I want to upload soon:
TESSA FOX (MY FIRST SEWANEE FEATURE)
MODEST WORK OUTWEAR
today’s post “waiting for something” is taking the front seat because this is weighing heavy on my heart.
This writing deep thought provoking posts is something I am new at and I am happy that I have grown more comfortable with doing so-it’s been a long journey. It’s so easy to share the outfits I love, the things I’m studying, places I wanna travel to (what I an comfortable with) but it’s challenging to write and publish the raw emotions I feel-my emotions. That being said I want to do this because I believe in these raw moments you can relate to others and in these moments true beauty is found. These are the moments in which God is teaching you something.
the action of staying where one is or delaying action until a particular time or until something else happens.
Today was the first time I actually looked up the definition of waiting. My whole life I’ve had my own way to define waiting and that was simply not getting what I wanted when I wanted it. Plain and simple there it is human and selfish.
As humans we get angry about the little stuff like if we are in the drive-through line for more than five minutes because we want our food like ASAP. We demand instant gratification-we are obsessed with it. If we want something we can’t afford we can get a loan, a credit card or simply do lay away. The world caters to this “I want it right now” demand and it is so easy to put this same mentality into every aspect of our life. If we are not careful it can consume us. Things like Instagram, Facebook, and Twitter can make this mentality worse. Have you have ever seen something on social media that you didn’t even know you wanted-we trick ourselves into wanting things we don’t actually want because someone else has it. This can be a great pair of shoes, to do something, to have something, to travel somewhere or the worst to be someone else. We see where someone else is in their life and want to fast forward ours. We want to be 16 already and be driving, we want to be graduated from high school and in college, we want to be working that fancy job, we want to be engaged, we want that puppy, we want to build our own house, we want to be in grad school already, we want our blog to hurry up and grow, we want to be that successful on social media… We have to protect ourselves from this because it can make us deeply unhappy and blind us from seeing our own beauty, uniqueness and strength!
The tricky thing is when someone says wait they don’t always say how long. You could be waiting for something for five minutes or an hour. You could be waiting for an answer to a prayer for a few days or a few months. Here’s the big kicker you could even wait for a few years!!!! Wait how inconvenient of God right?… for like making us wait like doesn’t he know that we want what we want when we want it? Doesn’t he like want us to be happy and living our best lives? Wait like why doesn’t he just make it happen because we like NEED it to? He can do it like why won’t he? I like asked him for something like I prayed about it so….yeah why isn’t it happening?
We’ve all asked these questions or thought these things. Yes, me too. It’s okay!!!! EVERYONE feels this way at some point in life. NEWS FLASH WE ARE HUMAN. But it’s when we are asking these questions and when we are in these moments where we have the opportunity to learn to wait for a second and trust God. It took me a long time to learn that praying for what I wanted was a whole lot different than praying for God’s will and just talking to him about my life. When I learned to give God my hopes and desires saying here God you do with this what you want-I trust you…. my entire life changed. I mean like big changes, HUGE ONES LIKE MIRACLES. That doesn’t mean that I still don’t struggle with being impatient! The truth is I absolutely struggle with it but I have learned time and time again that God’s will for my life far exceeds my own. His timing is always right. I know this because I would never have dreamed for myself to be on the pre-med track, studying Chinese, writing a blog, meeting influential people, traveling all over the world and God giving me crazy insane blessings.
I am writing this because it’s so easy to get out of touch with God and get impatient. It’s easy to look at someone else and get frustrated and upset. It’s also easy to stop waiting and settle. This is the most dangerous thing we can do and I don’t mean like exciting dangerous I mean like devastatingly dangerous. We can not trust God and we can take action ourselves that might be good for a while even great but can take us places we might never have wanted to go. We can settle for less than what God has for us we can settle ourselves out of our blessing.
It’s dangerous to be impatient. It’s dangerous to settle.
I have been praying for something very specific for what seems like forever and in this new season of life, it is so easy for me to get impatient when waiting for the answer. It is so easy for me to get upset and start asking those questions I mentioned before. Honestly, sometimes I still do ask them but when I do I always come back to the real deal with Jesus. I eventually give it to him and pray for his will. This is beautiful because we learn to depend on God! There is beauty in the waiting period because while I see what I want and what is in front of me God sees my whole life and he has the perfect plan for every aspect. He knows exactly what we need.
Have you ever prayed for something got it and realized it wasn’t what you wanted?
Have you ever prayed for a door to open and an opportunity arrises but then the door shuts?
Have you ever met someone and then they turned out to be the complete opposite of what you expected?
Have you ever wanted something in the moment and later realized you were wrong?
Have you ever done something out of impatience and then felt huge regret?
Me too. But one door closes-another opens. Two doors close-I’m gonna praise him in the hallway. GOD’S GOT THIS. TRUST HIM!
I trust Jesus because he has never let me down. His way is always better. I want what he wants for me in his perfect timing. His love is never ending and he is always looking out for you. So trust him.
Oh and if you’re in the hallway:
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.
But they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.
Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.
Better a patient person than a warrior,
one with self-control than one who takes a city.
2 Peter 3:8 | NIV |
But do not forget this one thing, dear friends: With the Lord a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years are like a day.
Psalm 27:14 | NIV |
Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.
I’m waiting and I am sure you are waiting for something too. I hope that this encourages you because it has been heavy on my heart to share. We must be strong in the Lord and be patient because he’s got it all worked out.
I love y’all and thank you for taking the time to read this post! I’d love to hear any comments you might have or any stories about patience in your life!! Feel free to comment below, email me or DM me on Instagram.
Bless others and be blessed!
Alexa Sue-Anne Dudley